i've discovered that opening shop is overwhelming for me. postal rates and packaging. philosophy and creative process. returns and exchanges. delivery options and shop policies. and witty, creative wording to go along with it all. plus the photos of my products that need to be taken and the business cards that need to get made and on and on. i know that it doesn't have to happen all at once. and i know that it's going to take alot of trial and error. and i'm going to make mistakes and it will get better with time. but i just don't have it in me right now. give me a week or two. i'm working on it.
because here's the bigger picture. i'm having a hard time fitting this into my life. and my life is feeling rather rough right now to begin with. i'm having a hard time making this space a priority when there's so much going on. i wish that it were a priority. and not because i feel like it has to be but because i want it to be. i want to be excited to come here and process and create and communicate. i'm hoping that with practice, it will be. i need practice. practice fitting more into my already busy, crazy life. practice rearranging things to make life less stressful. practice making this work. it's just taking longer than i'd hoped(which, of course, is frustrating which, in turn, makes things more stressful which is frustrating and the cycle goes on...). i'm working on it.
the even bigger picture is that life has been just plain hard the past couple of weeks. but i'm trying really hard to see life in a better light. to see the good in it all. i'm working on letting go of things(both material and emotional)and moving forward. some days i feel as if i'm losing my mind. and some days i feel like giving up altogether. but i don't. i haven't quite lost my mind yet(although some might say that's negotiable)and i haven't given up. because i do have so much goodness and so much to be grateful for. it could be so much worse and it's not. and so i keep on keepin' on knowing that no matter how hard life gets, i have amazing, loving people to turn to and three wonderful, healthy children to love. so much good. so much thanks.
Your strength and creative spirit are always an inspiration, Laura. No matter what it is that tries to keep you down, you won't let it. I've learned that much about you. Right where you are is where you need to be.
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Love you.
Kara
Laurie, I have been at some really hard places in my life for some really long times, (mentally, emotionally and physically). But trust me when I tell you that time passes, kids get more self sufficent (sad but true) and life will get easier. What I learned, many times the hard way, is that Life is "action based". You just have to keep taking action, keep taking steps in the right direction (even baby steps) even when its hard and you're beat down and you don't think it will make a difference. The good will catch up to you. Have faith and know that you are in my prayers. love, Gail
ReplyDeletelove you guys so, so much! so much good, i have.
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